Monday, November 17, 2008

Bored, again.

I am so bored, I relooked up bored on dictionary.com. I learned a new word. It could have my picture by it. This is me, so much of my life.

en·nui (ŏn-wē', ŏn'wē)
n. Listlessness and dissatisfaction resulting from lack of interest; boredom: "The servants relieved their ennui with gambling and gossip about their masters" (John Barth). Or
"Tawny relieved her ennui with eating and messing around on the computer"

[French, from Old French enui, from ennuyer, to annoy, bore; see annoy.]

Word History: Were they alive today, users of Classical Latin might be surprised to find that centuries later a phrase of theirs still survives, although as a single word. The phrase mihi in odiō est (literally translated as "to me in a condition of dislike or hatred is"), meaning "I hate or dislike," gave rise to the Vulgar Latin verb *inodiāre, "to make odious," the source of the Old French verb ennuyer or anoier, "to annoy, bore." This was borrowed into English by around 1275 as anoien, our annoy. From the Old French verb a noun meaning "worry, boredom" was derived, which became ennui in modern French. This noun, with the sense "boredom," was borrowed into English in the 18th century, perhaps filling a need in polite, cultivated society. (I had to put this in here to show how closely this word is tied with annoy which is also on my list of top 5 most frequent emotions.)
The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition

Life should be bigger than it is. I have known that since I was a little girl. How Lord? How do we live bigger with You? I don't want to just survive and be good. I want to dance. With You. With Your people. I am so tired of being bored with life. I am not bored with You, I am bored with me. Could You change me quicker? I know that will spice things up! Do I dare ask in Your Name? I think I will.....

5 comments:

Tony York said...

Sometimes we ask for relief from boredom thinking a dance will come along but instead we find ourselves not bored because we are trying to learn how to stand again.

May God bring exactly what you need to relieve your ennui.

Tawny said...

You are right Tony, that is what happens somtimes. There is something beautiful and noble in learning to stand again though. Not that I want that, I don't. I want to learn to live truly believing that everything is a life and death matter. It is all more important than we realize while we are here on this earth.

I will be excited again this afternoon, probably, I am a very in the moment sort of person. I was bored yesterday afternoon and made it a bigger deal than it is. :)

Darla D said...

Tawny,
When I read what you wrote about boredom, then I know you DO understand somewhat what I tell you over and over again about wanting MORE in my life than I presently do. Sigh!

Tawny said...

Darla, I am glad you finally believe me, a little. :) You should be liking your life right now, right?

mandy said...

OH gosh this is a poignant thought... We shouldn't be bored, should we? What does it say about our Spiritual Lives? wow